In the past few months I have learned a lot about myself. When the incident first occurred I was very angry.
I know plenty of people that drink that are under age and they dont get caught. I kept asking myself why me?At first I was hesitant to change, but the last few months have been eye opening. I have definitely used this situation to my advantage. There are so many things that I have learned about myself. I have used these last few months to really evaluate my life and set new goals for myself. I think this experience has greatly affected my life in more ways then one.I have done many things to change my life. I have seen changes in my personal life regarding my family and my friends.
Many people talk about life changing experiences and how it affects them. I think that my life has changed for the good because of this incident. Im glad that I have used this negative incident to better my life and to change the fate of my future.As I stated before, there are many things that have changed in the past few months.
I think this biggest thing that has changed is my feelings towards myself. I have always been pretty confident in my abilities, and myself but I never really had the motivation to do the things that I knew I was capable of.After the incident occurred I asked myself what could I do to change the way my life is headed.I really didnt have answers.
I decided to go home to Jupiter and talk to my parents. I am pretty close with them and I definitely value their opinion.I figured that since they were older and more experienced they could give me some insight on what they have learned.We talked a lot about my past behavior and how a lot of my friends drink.We also talked about how college and drinking kind of go hand and hand in a lot of peoples minds.
My parents gave me some ideas on how I could change my life and my choices.We agreed that it would be a good idea to talk to my friends and tell them about how I was feeling. I was kind of unsure about how to approach this with my friends. I felt kind of uneasy about telling some of my friends.We talk mostly about girls, sports etc.I didnt think that they would understand what I was going through.
As it turns out, my friends were kind of going through the same thing. My best friend John told me that after this incident he started thinking about some of the things in his life. One night before we all left to go home for Thanksgiving, we all talked about our families and our goals. I felt so much better after this.We all agreed that in order for us to start growing as adults we had to be in control of our lives. Sometimes when you are drinking you get out of control and things happen that wouldnt have if you had been sober. That night changed my relationships with all of my friends.
We agreed that we didnt need to drink to have fun and that we would probably save money.The other day we were all sitting around talking about life and how our lives had changed since that night. We all feel like we are doing better in school, we are healthier, motivated, and richer. I definitly feel healthier and more motivated. The last few months I have been getting up earlier and getting more things accomplished during the day. It seems that my relationship with my parents has gotten better too.
Everything seems a little more clearer. Im glad that I have the kind of friends that can be mature enough to help me deal with this situation. I think this incident has helped a lot of them too. We have all become a lot more goal orientated and focused on school.I have definitly become a harder worker and I have started to think about the future and what Im going to do with my life I havent figured all of it out yet, but who really has?All my life I have always loved sports.My faveroite sport is basketball, but I really love them all. I played basketball in high school and was considering playing in college.
I never really thought about having a career in sports. I always thought of sports as a hobby or something to do for fun.The past couple of months I realized that maybe I could have a career in soprts.People are always saying you should do something that you love for a job.I read somewhere that doing something you love for a career is one of the keys to having a happy and successful life.Sports used to ba a great outlet for me when I was younger.
I also love to watch sports and read about them. I watch Sportscenter every day and if im bored I usually just watch ESPN. After the incident I started thinking that athletes, agents, and sports writers were so lucky because they got to work in sports.Then I realized that I could do that too.When people ask me what I want to be I usually say happy and successful.
If im doing something that I enjoy I guess Ill be happy and probably successful.I dont think I would have really thought about this unless this happened.I never really thought about the future that much. It never dawned on me that I am the one that controls my on destiny.I now see that I am truly the master of my own fate.
If something like this were to happen again I know it will affect my goals and my future.Im certain that I wont have to worry about that. I have been making smarter choices when it comes down to situations like that.
I have been fortunate to have this experience under my belt. Some people wouldnt have changed their behavior and continued on the same path, but I chose to us ethis to learn something. Now I have an idea of what I want to do with my life and I have the motivation to accomplish it.
When I was in high school I was always a really good student. I have a few ideas about why that is, but I think it mostly has to do with not being in a major I enjoyed. Since I have switched my major I have been doing a lot better in school. I feel that it might also have to do with my new approach on how I look at things.School is very time consuming but I find now that because im sleeping better and the relationships in my life are different, I can focus on school more.
I tend to study more too.I asked my friends if they noticed a difference in their school work. All of my friends have said that they are all doing better in their classes. They all seem to be changing since we started talking about more serious stuff. We still talk about the same things, but now sometimes we have more serious conversations.
I dont know if alchohol ever affected my G.P.AI think that I still go out the same amount, but Im just more motivated to do more work before I go out.
Im eager to see how well I do this semester. I did ok last semester, but I think this incident affected how well I did. I was still trying to figure things out. Im still confused about a lot of things, but I am definitly a lot better off then I was before.I am also thinking about getting more involved with school. I have been thinking about doing some extra curricular activites. Im not quite sure which ones yet, but I have been in the process of researching them.
The other day I was talking to my best friend and we both talked about what we were going to do for spring break. We both decided that we will either go home or stay in town to catch up on some school work.Im convinced that my G.
P.A was never affected by my drinking, but again I am doing more school work now.I honestly think it has just been this experience. I am so much more aware of my self and my abilities. I know that I cant change the past.I can only see these last couple of months as a part of life.
Im obviously in a different frame of mind then I was in October. Im not proud of my two incidents of underage drinking, but again I cant change it. I just have to take what I have learned from this and use it to the best of my ability. Im not sure if there can ever be a harder challenge then trying to find yourself. I have basically changed my ideas and beliefs.I turn twenty-one in November and a part of me knows that there will be a lot more drinking around me.But I dont know if I will be participating in that.
Sure a part of me wants to do the Tennessee Waltz with my friends, but I really like how things are going. I never drank because I felt peer pressured to srink or because I had to drink to have fun.I just drank because it is college and a lot of people do it. Im sure when I turn twenty-one the novelty will wear off and I will probably hardly ever do it.
Im glad I didnt get into more trouble then I could have.There are so many things that could happen if you have been drinking. It just seems that trouble and drinking go hand and hand . If I dont drink or do drugs I can definitly keep my chances of getting in trouble again to a minimum.
If I could change the situation I dont think I would. I needed an incident like this to wake me up and make me figure things out. I have changed a lot of aspects in my life and Im proud of that. The day after this happened I definitly didnt feel like this was going to be a great learning experience. Now Im convinced that its probably the best thing that could have happened to someone who had no clue on who they were.
Im very happy I had an open mind and changed my life.Words/ Pages : 1,975 / 24